What is wrong with me?

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Registered: 04-22-2004
What is wrong with me?
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Wed, 05-19-2004 - 1:10am
Hey

Well it is over, mm and I broke up this evening. I am better now, but I still feel kinda rough. Things were going really well, it really took me by surprise. Just yesterday we were talking about going away the first week of June. Then today he came over, we watched the end of American Idol. We kissed and played around a little, then he stopped. Got real quiet. I asked him what was wrong, he said nothing. So we stopped. Then we started again. Then he stopped then started bawling. He again said that there was nothing wrong, but that he had to go. I text messaged him and told him that I couldn't help unless he let me in. He then said that he really cared about me, but he was still in love with his wife, that he didn't say anything because he didn't want to hurt me. I told him that it did hurt, but that I was glad he said something now. But my only option was to not see him any more. He said there was alot more that was needed to be said, so he is coming over about 5 to say it. I told him that he couldn't help that he didn't love me. That I understood. He said he never said he didn't. I replied with he never said he did either.

I am sure I will be in chat later on this morning.

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Wed, 05-19-2004 - 7:23am


((((((((((neenee)))))))))))))

I know this is a tough time for you, and we are all here for you. I hope I get to talk later this morning.

luv ya

dd

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Registered: 04-16-2004
Wed, 05-19-2004 - 7:41am
Oh, neenee....I want to cry for you.
cl-noregretsyet (co-cl of MAS board)
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Registered: 10-22-2003
Wed, 05-19-2004 - 8:39am
I'm very sorry for what you are going through. I know how much it hurts. My A officially ended about a week or so ago. XMM and I love each other very much and desperately want to be together, but it just isn't that easy to walk away from our current lives. His W found out about us and it got very ugly. I guess they decided to give their marriage one more chance. In order to protect me from his W (who had been harassing me), and also to allow himself to work 100% on the M, we've cut all contact. It stinks big time. I'm miserable.

All I can say is hang in there. I hope that if your A is really ending, your conversation today will give you some closure. Keep posting. We're here for you.

GB2