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What is wrong with me?
| Wed, 05-19-2004 - 1:10am |
Hey
Well it is over, mm and I broke up this evening. I am better now, but I still feel kinda rough. Things were going really well, it really took me by surprise. Just yesterday we were talking about going away the first week of June. Then today he came over, we watched the end of American Idol. We kissed and played around a little, then he stopped. Got real quiet. I asked him what was wrong, he said nothing. So we stopped. Then we started again. Then he stopped then started bawling. He again said that there was nothing wrong, but that he had to go. I text messaged him and told him that I couldn't help unless he let me in. He then said that he really cared about me, but he was still in love with his wife, that he didn't say anything because he didn't want to hurt me. I told him that it did hurt, but that I was glad he said something now. But my only option was to not see him any more. He said there was alot more that was needed to be said, so he is coming over about 5 to say it. I told him that he couldn't help that he didn't love me. That I understood. He said he never said he didn't. I replied with he never said he did either.
Well it is over, mm and I broke up this evening. I am better now, but I still feel kinda rough. Things were going really well, it really took me by surprise. Just yesterday we were talking about going away the first week of June. Then today he came over, we watched the end of American Idol. We kissed and played around a little, then he stopped. Got real quiet. I asked him what was wrong, he said nothing. So we stopped. Then we started again. Then he stopped then started bawling. He again said that there was nothing wrong, but that he had to go. I text messaged him and told him that I couldn't help unless he let me in. He then said that he really cared about me, but he was still in love with his wife, that he didn't say anything because he didn't want to hurt me. I told him that it did hurt, but that I was glad he said something now. But my only option was to not see him any more. He said there was alot more that was needed to be said, so he is coming over about 5 to say it. I told him that he couldn't help that he didn't love me. That I understood. He said he never said he didn't. I replied with he never said he did either.
I am sure I will be in chat later on this morning.

((((((((((neenee)))))))))))))
I know this is a tough time for you, and we are all here for you. I hope I get to talk later this morning.
luv ya
dd
All I can say is hang in there. I hope that if your A is really ending, your conversation today will give you some closure. Keep posting. We're here for you.
GB2