Got to spend a day from heaven with Foxy yesterday - we both took a day off from work (it was her idea, she said she wanted to reward me for being more than a week without her) and she came at my house around 8 am and left around 8 pm -- 12 hours of bliss. We had breakfast together, went for a long walk, then came home and made the most incredible love, then she cooked me dinner (she was walking around the kitchen in my T-shirt that was too big for her, with sleeves rolled up and barefoot, and was so delicious I couldn't take my hands off her). I took your advice and just decided to be happy with what I had and to enjoy and not spoil the moment. We shared a lot of love, laughter and emotional closeness, we talked about everything and anything we could think of but we didn't discuss our relationship.
She sent me an email this morning and among other things she said this:
"I loved our day together, we should have it every chance we can get and maybe it will heal you from your separation anxiety. When I walked into your house yesterday morning you almost scared me - you looked so exhausted. Like you weren't eating and sleeping at all. Why do you torture yourself like this, silly? Just because we weren't able to see each other last week? I liked it so much more when we went for a walk and you were relaxed, and smiling, and laughing, and your eyes lit up and you didn't have that gloomy and troubled look on your face that you always have when I have to go home and that makes me wonder sometimes whether our relationship makes you more depressed than happy. I want you to know that I see how hard you've been trying to keep your word not to push me and how much I appreciate it. And please, never be jealous. How can you not sense the difference between my obligations as a wife and my feelings for you?"
I never mentioned any of this to her. She reads me like a book. And I am just amazed at how right you all were trying to talk some sense into me. You are wonderful, girls, and your support and words of wisdom are invaluable.
see boston, if you just relax a little and have faith, the situation will resolve itself to your satisfaction. and because you are now relaxed and enjoying yourself with her, she sees how happy you are and realizes how happy she is with you so that eventually she will make the move to be with you, permanently!!
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TELL, TELL! why are you so happy, pray tell??
gurl
She sent me an email this morning and among other things she said this:
"I loved our day together, we should have it every chance we can get and maybe it will heal you from your separation anxiety. When I walked into your house yesterday morning you almost scared me - you looked so exhausted. Like you weren't eating and sleeping at all. Why do you torture yourself like this, silly? Just because we weren't able to see each other last week? I liked it so much more when we went for a walk and you were relaxed, and smiling, and laughing, and your eyes lit up and you didn't have that gloomy and troubled look on your face that you always have when I have to go home and that makes me wonder sometimes whether our relationship makes you more depressed than happy. I want you to know that I see how hard you've been trying to keep your word not to push me and how much I appreciate it. And please, never be jealous. How can you not sense the difference between my obligations as a wife and my feelings for you?"
I never mentioned any of this to her. She reads me like a book. And I am just amazed at how right you all were trying to talk some sense into me. You are wonderful, girls, and your support and words of wisdom are invaluable.
Your happiness shines right through your post -- hang on to it!!!
Charlotte
shine on honey!!
gurl
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