Why am I so blue today?
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Why am I so blue today?
| Thu, 03-04-2004 - 11:48am |
I am feeling really down and out today! My MM left this am for a convention for 5 days - which is not a big deal, but I typically see him at least once during the weekend! I'm so sad today - he's not with his W, but with collegues who know me (but, can't know about me) I'm not sure how often I'll hear from him and am a little hesitant to call him while he is gone because of who he's with. We only got to talk for a few minutes yesterday (of course, he was out on his porch, answered his phone while his W was inside, so you can only imagine how quick and formal the convo was) And...the last time he was away like this - one of his friends had a long talk w/him about me and thought it was time he ended it with me. Which of course, has never set well with me in my mind. He has since told this friend we've ended it..but, I guess in the back of my mind, I'm afraid they'll have a few beers and reintroduce the topic. (maybe not?)
I'm just sad that our contact will be limited, I won't see him for over a week and so afraid he'll get lectured about me again!
I wish I could blame this on PMS..LOL, but I can't!!!!

hey ducks, you're feeling blue because you're disconnected from MM while he traveling.
CL-Gurlfriend50
Co-CL of My Affair Support Board
Hang in there. You two are still together. He knows what's what.
I feel kind of down about it, but the upside is that I will probably see him Mon. or Tues instead.
Besides you know what they say about absence makes the heart grow fonder ...
I think that is so true!!
juliet, i'm sorry you're down and feeling blue.
CL-Gurlfriend50
Co-CL of My Affair Support Board
I'm sure he's gonna have a great time, warm weather, golf, the beach (hey - okay, so I'm a little jealous) The last thing he said to me yesterday - was "get your A** on a plane!" Like that could really happen....
Whoever said A were easy, huh?
If it makes you feel any better, I won't be able to see my OW for about 6 months. She lives 300 miles away and we both have a lot in our lives to get settled. I don't know why that would make you feel better, but you know what they say, misery loves company. The only positive thing for me is when I am able to be with her, it will be in a more honest place as I plan to be separated then.
Just focus on other things and I'm sure this 5 days will fly by. If it helps, write him a little e-mail just to let him know you were thinking of him while he was gone. And be sure to show him how much you missed him when you can be together. Good luck.
CL-Gurlfriend50
Co-CL of My Affair Support Board