why didn't he tell me his plans?

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why didn't he tell me his plans?
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Tue, 09-02-2008 - 9:15pm
why couldn't he tell me what his plans where. i wanted to be able to say good bye to him. i feel punched in the stomache, or like my guts are torn out. how do know if he read my email. will i ever get over this longing, will it ever go away. i know i'll never see him again, but it least i did tell him that i fell in love with him.

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Tue, 09-02-2008 - 10:19pm
i'm not handling this very well at all. i have so many things in my home that remind me of him. my pc, my cd, work done on my car, something very personal in my bed room that my H and i both use. i doubt he'll even read the emails, he'll delete them. i don't even want to go to work any more. to much of him around that reminds me of him. i don't know if telling him in an email i fell in love with him was right, but i had to. i miss him.
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Registered: 11-28-2007
Tue, 09-02-2008 - 11:03pm

Tori -


Honey you don't actually say what happened today - but by piecing together your posts here and on another thread - I'm assuming that by the time you got to APs work - he had already gone - and you did not get to say good-bye.

lightning in my heart

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Registered: 09-02-2008
Tue, 09-02-2008 - 11:21pm
Hi tori...I'm new here, but I feel for you. I'm sorry that you are hurting......I agree that it was good you told him your feelings...I wish you peace and comfort....
*~Duchie~*
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Tue, 09-02-2008 - 11:30pm
i want to know why he didn't let me say goodbye to him. when i was talking to him yestarday he knew he wasn't going to get what he wanted from the company, he knew he was leaving, why didn't he tell me. i already new, but i wanted our good byes. just nothing, i'm so hurt. is this how he deals with his feelings. i sent him back to back emails from different addresses, he may not reconize the first one, just saying good luck, that i fell in love with him. that i wanted to say good bye. i told him i'm torn, i feel like my guts have been torn out. i told him please don't ever for get me. why couldn't he give me the good bye i wanted so badly. i also told him spending time with him is when i've been happy. i can't handle this pain. i doubt he feels a thing. do you think he'll read the emails.
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Registered: 12-19-2007
Tue, 09-02-2008 - 11:31pm

tori,


why does AP losing/leaving his job mean the end of your relationship?

 

doll blonde&

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Tue, 09-02-2008 - 11:35pm
i know him, and the guilt he feels. the time he has.i found out today from another coworker he choose to leave because he couldn't get what he wanted. personally i can't blame him, he deserves better. they messed with him badly. he was nothing but forth coming the whole time.
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Registered: 12-19-2007
Tue, 09-02-2008 - 11:38pm

Tori,


But why does this mean the end for the two of you?

 

doll blonde&

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Tue, 09-02-2008 - 11:45pm
i could tell something was so wrong on the phone with him yestarday. the way he cut me short. it hurt the way he cut me short. he probably feels it's for the best for the both of us. i know, i can feel it. he needed me so badly on friday. i know he wont respond to those emails. i'm glad i told him that i did fall in love in love with him, even if it is in an email. i hope he reads them.
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Tue, 09-02-2008 - 11:51pm

Is anyone else following this?

 

doll blonde&

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Tue, 09-02-2008 - 11:52pm

Eyes -


I think it's because at his work was the only place they could ever meet up - so now that he is no longer with the company - it would seem that their A is also over.


Hope he does find a way to contact you Tori - and again - I am sorry you are hurting. Take care - Hugs,


Tgr ;)

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