Why Do I care ???

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Registered: 11-06-2003
Why Do I care ???
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Thu, 11-06-2003 - 9:19pm
I am so frustrated with myself . Why do I let this get to me. When my MM is home with his family he will email me . But it drives me crazy that he closes out his email address, when he has to get off , instead of leaving it , If I send a message when he is not on I get a error message that there is no such address . I on the other hand have a email address that I keep for him to write too. Even though my H uses the computer I have my own password . I hate this about my MM. ALSO his wife is pregnant. He is so sweet to me , but I can't help but think he has to be a dog to cheat on his wife with 2 kids at home and 1 on the way. I am also finding myself being consumed with jealousy when he is home with his family and I feel used. I have to wonder if his wife is just not putting out , and as soon as the baby gets here, and she resumes a sex life with him , he will just walk away as if nothing ever happened. It seems like my thoughts are preoccupied with him that I am not 100 percent here for my husband and children. I am trying to be strong and tell him I don't want to continue with this affair, but I always give in .
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Registered: 06-24-2003
Thu, 11-06-2003 - 10:48pm

Hi kittykat and welcome,


I'm not sure how that email would work... but I would probably get frustrated myself.

Sweet
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Registered: 11-06-2003
Fri, 11-07-2003 - 7:50am
Thank You so much for your reply. The email I am talking about is not his work email but home, an AOL address and I am not sure how he does it either. Thanks so much for showing me the different perspective. Of course I feel bad and sleazy about it sometimes but my marriage is only together for the kids. It is not a happy one. And has never been. MM makes me feel sexy and alive . He is also 7 years younger and it is a turn on to me to be wanted by a younger man . I will write more later. Thankyou so much for the feed back , I am having really mixed emotions about this whole thing. I love this website. I need to get ready for work . Have a great day . I am so happy you girls are out there for me to get this stuff off my chest , so to speak :-)