Why do I do this to myself......
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Why do I do this to myself......
| Thu, 12-11-2003 - 10:50am |
I question EVERY move that MM makes. He has NEVER let me down before but I continue to pick apart every move. He calls every day. He sees me whenever he can. He likes just to sit and talk if we can't "be together". He's perfect. Why do I torture myself. I want to talk to him 3 times a day! I want to see him everyday. I am very high maintenance emotionally. I don't want to tell him I get upset when he doesn't call me every night on his way to work. But I do. What do you guys do when he doesn't call? I make sure to NEVER call him because I don't want to think I am bugging him. I mean the rules say NEVER call him and seldom return his calls. I'm going CRAZY. He usually calls every morning when he knows I'm on my way to work. Like clock work. NO call today. But we are going out of town this weekend together!!!!! I can't wait!

and you lucky girl, getting to spend the weekend with MM away! early christmas presents are the best!!
go ahead, make that call.
gurl
what's up with the not being weak comment? do you not trust your MM with your deepest feelings?? tell him girl! just like you can't read his mind, he can't read yours.
some honest communication between the two of you seems in order. think about it 'cause that's the only way you're going to feel better and less out of control and lots less needy, emotionally.
just do it!!
gurl
Secret,
I know exactly where you're coming from... I also feel like that alot of the time. If he doesn't call, I overthink it until it drives me mad. But that's the key- "overthinking". Sometimes I talk to him about it, other times I just tell myself to calm down and realize that just because he doesn't call doesn't mean he loves me any less. In fact, I'm getting much better at the whole thing... to the point when if he doesn't call me after work (we usually talk every day after work) I don't flip out and call him, all upset. In fact, he didn't call me earlier this week, and come to find out, he was messing around with his cell and accidentally deleted my contact info! and here I was thinking "why hasn't he called?" lol...
You're not alone, babe!! Thank goodness for this place and my journal, that's all I can say!