why do i feel like crying.

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Registered: 06-08-2007
why do i feel like crying.
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Tue, 11-04-2008 - 3:16pm
My ap and I had the most amazing morning. We met, had the most amazing sex. I will say three times and the man could still keep going, one time was in the shower. We talked, laughed, and I helped him with his resume. He still is unemployed. Finding something with his salary requirements is tough. He told how gorgues I looked today and noticed I did my hair. When we where leaving I said can I tell you something, he said yes, I said you know I care for you and I love you. He kissed me and wed said good bye and we would talk on friday. I don't see him as much, the emotions *re stronger. I wanted to cry when we had to say good bye and still do. He's so much better at dealing with emotions more then I am. It was a beautiful 4 hours of alone time for us.

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Registered: 09-01-2008
Wed, 11-05-2008 - 9:55am

I just wanted to say I know exactly how you feel.

 

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Registered: 08-31-2008
Wed, 11-05-2008 - 10:19am

I dread this feeling, because I know it's coming to me. My AP and I are going out on Saturday night, and he said he would love to spend the whole night with me. That will be our first whole night together, and I just don't know how will I feel on Sunday after he will leave...I'll probably be crushed.

(((Hugs)))

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Registered: 07-24-2005
Wed, 11-05-2008 - 11:34am

For me the sadness came after he left me to go


iVillage Member
Registered: 11-03-2008
Wed, 11-05-2008 - 7:47pm

You are so right, the sadness definately comes after they leave you to go be with the W.

iVillage Member
Registered: 09-30-2008
Wed, 11-05-2008 - 7:58pm

I am also excited for this weekend. I am going over night with AP at his hunting cabin. I too can't wait. It is tough when you leave but not too bad since we see each other alot and he never makes me feel like I am 2nd which of course I am but it nevers feels that way. Just enjoy the time and remember that he must really want to be with you if you get him

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Registered: 07-24-2005
Wed, 11-05-2008 - 8:11pm

Has anyone ever asked why we put ourselves in these situations


Ahhh...the million dollar question.


iVillage Member
Registered: 09-01-2008
Wed, 11-05-2008 - 9:23pm

I leave to go home to my H also.

 

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Registered: 06-08-2007
Thu, 11-06-2008 - 7:24am
thank you for all the replies. to answer one person, no i never would put my life on hold for my AP. i have my own life and obviously so does he. we are there for each other when we can be. initially i felt like crying, but it's part of what the relationship is. if i didn't love him, then it wouldn't matter. sometimes i wish i didn't love him. it would make this whole thing easier. i do cherish our time together.
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Registered: 08-31-2008
Thu, 11-06-2008 - 8:27am
This is exactly what I told my AP the other day...if I would not be in love with him, it would be so much easier, I would just take it for what it is and could care less.
*sigh*
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Registered: 08-31-2008
Thu, 11-06-2008 - 8:33am
Clarity, you said something very meaningful to me. Usually women in A are thought to have a low self-esteem, like they're not able to find themselves their own men etc., but I never felt like that. I always thought of myself as attractive, smart and successful woman, able to get any man I want. I am with my AP because I love him and believe I am special for him too. So, I guess, my problem is high self-esteem :) I also do not plan to stay in A for more then 6 months...which gives me and him 2 more months..and then either he is out of his home, or I am out of his life.
I love your posts, by the way. They are very down to earth.


Edited 11/6/2008 10:43 am ET by vivaciousgirl (p-1875112866)

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