why do i feel like crying.
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why do i feel like crying.
| Tue, 11-04-2008 - 3:16pm |
My ap and I had the most amazing morning. We met, had the most amazing sex. I will say three times and the man could still keep going, one time was in the shower. We talked, laughed, and I helped him with his resume. He still is unemployed. Finding something with his salary requirements is tough. He told how gorgues I looked today and noticed I did my hair. When we where leaving I said can I tell you something, he said yes, I said you know I care for you and I love you. He kissed me and wed said good bye and we would talk on friday. I don't see him as much, the emotions *re stronger. I wanted to cry when we had to say good bye and still do. He's so much better at dealing with emotions more then I am. It was a beautiful 4 hours of alone time for us.

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But situation I am in feels so humiliating, I just have to move on to save myself from this insanity. I am in my prime right now, there is no way I'll be sitting around for years and waiting for something that will never happen. There was a post recently from someone who is almost 40 and she is waiting for 5 years for AP to divorce, and I thought of myself wasting 5 best years on unavailable man and was horrified.
I don't expect him to leave immediately, but I need his definite decision. I love him, but I love myself too.
Thank you for your compliment :)
Usually women in A are thought to have a low self-esteem, like they're not able to find themselves their own men etc.
I'm not sure if this is how the low self-esteems applies.
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