why do i feel like crying.

iVillage Member
Registered: 06-08-2007
why do i feel like crying.
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Tue, 11-04-2008 - 3:16pm
My ap and I had the most amazing morning. We met, had the most amazing sex. I will say three times and the man could still keep going, one time was in the shower. We talked, laughed, and I helped him with his resume. He still is unemployed. Finding something with his salary requirements is tough. He told how gorgues I looked today and noticed I did my hair. When we where leaving I said can I tell you something, he said yes, I said you know I care for you and I love you. He kissed me and wed said good bye and we would talk on friday. I don't see him as much, the emotions *re stronger. I wanted to cry when we had to say good bye and still do. He's so much better at dealing with emotions more then I am. It was a beautiful 4 hours of alone time for us.

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iVillage Member
Registered: 06-08-2007
Thu, 11-06-2008 - 10:14am
i hope to god that you can walk away as easy as you say you can. when my AP lost his job, he thought clean start, i'm going to walk the straight and narrow. put my life back into my marriage, and do the right thing. we had nc for 3 weeks, he broke down and contacted me. when my AP was working it was easy for us to contact one another, see each other as much as we wanted. now we see each other much less and talk either on the computer or on the phone about twice a week. he's home all the time, and his wife is home with him except for 2 to 3 days out of the week. i hope you can follow through with your convictions.
iVillage Member
Registered: 08-31-2008
Thu, 11-06-2008 - 10:50am
tori, I left him once and thought I would die from pain. Break ups are horrible.
But situation I am in feels so humiliating, I just have to move on to save myself from this insanity. I am in my prime right now, there is no way I'll be sitting around for years and waiting for something that will never happen. There was a post recently from someone who is almost 40 and she is waiting for 5 years for AP to divorce, and I thought of myself wasting 5 best years on unavailable man and was horrified.
I don't expect him to leave immediately, but I need his definite decision. I love him, but I love myself too.
iVillage Member
Registered: 06-08-2007
Thu, 11-06-2008 - 12:26pm
i respect your convictions. my situation is not one where we are leaving out marriages. god bless.
iVillage Member
Registered: 07-24-2005
Thu, 11-06-2008 - 1:14pm

Thank you for your compliment :)


Usually women in A are thought to have a low self-esteem, like they're not able to find themselves their own men etc.


I'm not sure if this is how the low self-esteems applies.


iVillage Member
Registered: 08-02-2000
Thu, 11-06-2008 - 5:55pm
I agree with Clarity.

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