why do we cheat on good H's?
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why do we cheat on good H's?
| Fri, 10-17-2008 - 3:35pm |
My H is a wonderful man, I'm not gonna lie. He works hard, he takes great care of our DD, he cooks nearly all the meals, he does the home projects, etc. And doesn't ever complain. He is nice to me and is very close to his family. And yet here I am cheating on him with who I truly believe is the love of my life. H and I just don't click I guess. I mean we get along for the most part, but I just don't feel that connection. No sexual chemistry, no anything. Sometimes I kind of even wish he were mean sometimes so I'd feel better and that's awful I know, but I can't help it. And I'd love to be with AP, but how do you justify leaving a terribly good catch? Ugh A's really are so draining and confusing.

Aww God.,.I am asking myself that same question too. and the guilt and self loathing is eating away at me..
My husband is a good ,kind ,.gentle man who would never hurt me in any way...Its a second marriage for both of us, and we promised we would always be honest with each other and if we ever felt the need to move on we would tell each other.I have broken that promise now..and I am having a hard time living with myself..
Its just that he has changed so much from the man I fell in love with..or maybe its me..No he has changed...He had a horrible accident 11 years ago..and without going into detail..well our lives were turned upside down and we survived but not without major life changes...I feel so alone and lost..For many years the focus has been on him getting well and dealing with what we were left with.Our sex life is almost non existent ,its not from lack of my trying..but I think somewhere in all this mess I gave up..after disappointment after disappointment..It was just not the same...I think I have been sleeping the past few years...sorta to numb myself from it all??
We have gotten ourselves into a horrible rut..he watches tv and sleeps..Alot.. I have tried to patient and understand ,its not entirely his fault..but God how lonely and alone I have been.. there is more issues such as relocating and family stuff that we just can;t agree on..so we are at a standstill.
But ........this summer its as if I came alive from my coma, I don;t know why it happened..or how..it started out so innocently, but happen it did..They say everything happens for a reason ,and I truly believe that..I belive my AP came into my life for a reason..but Ohh God such turmoil in my heart and soul right now..Why am I putting myself through this ?? Is it worth it? I ask myself what the h@@@ am I doing.? but I wouldn;t change it now. I feel so alive ,yet...> So yes why do we do this to ourselves and to our H?? it would devastate H to know I have lied and cheated...
It would devastate him to know I have cheated,, but
My husband was a wonderful man, he made good money, took care of out child and loved me. Unfortunately, out sex life was non-existent.
I'm one of the few guys here, AP and i are almost 2 great years, both M.
I can relate to what Lucky is saying.