Why, oh why, oh why!!!

iVillage Member
Registered: 04-27-2009
Why, oh why, oh why!!!
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Mon, 12-03-2012 - 1:38pm

In response to me telling AP how the intensity of my feelings for him scares the cr*p out of me at times, he replies with

"If it helps(?) I think about you constantly and I am VERY grateful we can steal time together.You were a closed chapter in my book but I am forever thankful that we found each other again. It is not ideal but not seeing or being with you is not an option as far as I am concerned. I need to say more but do not have the words!"

And now my heart wants things my head knows it can't have. I try to keep 'grounded' regarding the A but it's a struggle some days.

:-(

 

katuk
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Registered: 08-17-2010
Tue, 12-04-2012 - 9:51pm
Absolutely know what you mean. It is like you want to be happy to hear those words but then it make sit more difficult to stay grounded and realistic. That is the catch 22. We want to know we are loved but then once we get that info, we want more. Sometimes I feel as if love in an affair is like having a million dollars in currency that you can not use.
iVillage Member
Registered: 04-27-2009
Wed, 12-05-2012 - 7:41am

You've absolutely nailed it Miles. I've known and loved this guy for 43 years, separated by circumstances I won't go into here for 34 and reconciled for the last 4 years. It's an LDA which is hard to cope with at the best of times but when he says things like "the more I see you the more I want to see you" and the stuff in my original post it's tough especially as we are not 'youngsters'...there is an element of feeling time is running out. :-(

katuk
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Registered: 09-21-2007
Wed, 12-05-2012 - 10:14am

You know, I struggle with it all the time.  My head and heart are constantly at odds.  I want what I can't have and it truly sucks some days!!!

 

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