Will it always be a rollercoaster?
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| Thu, 10-30-2008 - 12:47pm |
Hi everyone,
Just a quick update after my last post (where AP was a real jerk and ended up standing me up because he didn't like the fact that I was in the bar).
He did end up coming over on the Sunday before he left (and remember, he'd come home on the Wednesday and we were supposed to get together, Sunday was the first time he talked to me after he got his nickers in a knot). I could tell he was very hurt and that was so not my intention...I thought we had already decided that we would see each other after his sport thing on the Wednesday evening. I got really messed up over this, I just didn't know what I had done and since he wasn't talking to me I had to guess (I guessed right but it's rather moot at this point). We spent a little time together that day and he cried, I think because he could see how upset and sad I was that he had treated me that way...he also apologized for making me so sad and that made me feel a little better.
Anyway, he's been texting me since then and he always signs off with XXXOOO. Maybe I'm just too easy but it feels so wonderful when he does that. He also phoned me last Sunday morning just to say hi and have a wee chat. And I just received a text from him that simply said XO :-)....he is coming home again tomorrow and I think we are going to have a FANTASTIC time together since the last time he was home was such a bust!
I really love him so much and I'm certain he feels the same...how did we get here? For heaven's sake...we've been together for almost 14 months now and I still think about him virtually 24/7 (and I'm pretty sure it's the same for him)...I can't see it ending anytime soon and that makes me extremely happy.
Thanks for listening and your support when I was so hurt the last time he was here...it meant a lot.
benska

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lol....guess so....me and ap/xap/friend or whatever you wanna call him have resumed texting all day even though we are only friends..and he asked so graciously for my friendship, i agreed..waved in the white flag....habits really die hard...and not to mention i have a very very very very softened spot in my heart and soul for him and he can just lay right in that spot and warm me up..... and gosh it's already been 103 texts back and forth so far...but it'll die down a little once we get whatever together we are gonna get together, whenever we get it together...we must send about 800-1000 per month..between the both of us...it will be a roller coaster ride for a long time per a veteran in this game...who's been in it with the same ap for 12-13 years...but there will be a settling point where you either come to a meeting of the ways or become comfortable with one another to agree to disagree and accept certain things...
"be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind"---Dr. Seuss
Thx for the reply tyger,
I know what you mean about the texts...AP/BF has been away working for quite a while and my last phone bill was a doozy (yes, I don't have a texting plan but I plan on getting one!). If it wasn't right there, in black and white, I never would have believed that I've received 139 and sent 111...it's crazy.
Wow, you've been with same AP for 12 years? My hat's off to you! Although I think that could possibly be me one day....I am crazy about this guy and I want to be with him for as long as I possibly can. I truly think he feels the same way about me, we love being together.
oh no ..i wasn't clear...i have a friend who's been with the same ap for 13 years..i've been with mine for 1 year almost..and our texts total over 100 per day for like a week after a disagreement of rabuot 80 a day..just on any regular day..our bills aren't expensive because we both subscribe to unlimited minutes for talking and texting...lol...but my friend who's been with ap for over 13 years has got the game completely right....she gives me advice and is a very good listener..and yes it will be a roller coaster ride as long as you are with him...
i told her today i was only his friend and not messing with him like that..and that i was gonna be careful with him..and she said "YEAH RIGHT, THAT NEVER WORKS!" lol lol lol
"be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind"---Dr. Seuss