wow!! the replies to the 'crap' post....

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Registered: 06-18-2003
wow!! the replies to the 'crap' post....
Mon, 10-27-2003 - 4:48am
Wow....in a strange way it makes me feel more 'normal' to know I'm not alone in my feelings on this. I thought it was just me punishing myself and couldn't really figure out why I was being so weak! To some of you who've been doing this long term, you must surely have ulcers by now....you just have to. I can't imagine. As enjoyable (painful) as my A has been I can't imagine holding on that long. The one thought that keeps going through my mind is if the time were ever right...the question I'd ask myself if we hooked up in the real world is would he do this again with another? Could never live like that either!!

So again I ask.....why are we doing this to ourselves???

Is the sex that good? (yes)

Is the attention that good? (yes)

Is the fantasy world perfect? ie: no bills, no stresses of daily living. (yes)

Is the pain and heartache worth it all? (NO)

But here we sit, continuing the game until we are strong enough to pull ourselves up and walk away. And here I sit just days before a long overdo rendevous feeling like a silly schoolgirl days before Christmas anticipating that great 'gift'.

Thanks so much for your replies, I honestly feel better knowing it's not just me!!!

Best of luck to you all!!