this year vs. last
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|Fri, 07-05-2013 - 6:05pm|
Last fourth of july, i awoke to an email from AP telling me he loved me. We lived a fairy tale for a week or so before we both said we couldn't do this, couldn't ruin this "friendship" we had by making it in to something it could never be. Three months later, after I was having a rough day, he told me he still loved me and always would. I've never brought it up again.
Eight days ago, we were talking about our plans for the holiday and I said nothing would ever compare to last year and he said: "last fourth of July did stand out a bit". I hoped he would have more to say... but i haven't heard from him since. I've been a little bummed about it, but I also know I really shouldn't expect anything more from him.
I've "known" him (online) for four years now, we became much "closer" well over a year ago. He tells me all the time he's still waiting for that day to come when we finally get to meet in person... but I'm beginning to think we never will as we are slowly drifting apart. It doesn't help, too, that his former AP, the one he fell in love with three years ago - his wife's sister who started this whole downward spiral in his life that eventually led him to me - moved into his neighborhood and he spends plenty of time with her. He says the feelings for her are gone, but I will believe that when I see it.
*sigh* Such is the life of being in an affair. what a stupid thing to do. :(