You will all be so disappointed in me..
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| Mon, 12-08-2003 - 1:04pm |
slowly we have been talking a bit here and there. not much. once a week on msn and i have been okay with that. then i told him that i will be coming to NL w/H in march. He seemed happy to hear, but was more concerned about not getting me in trouble, even saying we shouldn't see eachother. Not exactly the warm welcome. I told him that i have time for myself, we could meet in amsterdam for the day. he said that would be a good idea. BUt the idea of being in the same village as him for 2 days will drive me nuts.. just knowing he is right there, and i can't see him. H was very clear that he better not come over accidentally to bring anything to his father... etc..
well, his b-day is this wed, and i sent a card. he already thanked me, and i said that i missed him this morning.. nothing back.. great.. the rollercoaster starts again.. why am i letting this happen. i was soo good the past few weeks without him,and now he is back in, i feel like i need to see him again...
he was so sweet about saying he wants to come here etc.. made me feel like the old us again.. we shall see

Charlotte
you are obviously not happy and OM is just going about his business, without a care in the world about your feelings. so what future do you see for the two of you?? you pining for OM, waiting for a few words via email or a couple of minutes on the phone?? mikko, you really, really need to look at this R and see it for what it is -- unfulfilling, upsetting, confusing. i'm sorry to be so negative, but i can't see an upside for you. do you?
gurl