I find myself a touch jealous of all the HLs.
It never ceases to amaze me when LLs complain they are LL.
When you see it coming, duck!
No, I don't really want to be HL.
I want you to know I understand what you are feeling. When my libido left I was completely and utterly despondent about it for a while. I mourned what I had lost. I looked around and thought "all these people are normal and I'm broken." The fact that I used to be HL and responsive and multiorgasmic and all of that had vanished really got to me.
I've learned to stop beating myself up over it, and to start loving what I have got going on. Do your best. Be your best self. There's a lot more to you than HL or LL, ya know?
This must be very hard, and a kind of feeling that your body & mind
This certainly applies to me, as I've stated on several occasions. If doing X brings up feeling of inadequacy, it's human nature to seek to avoid X.