ML on honeymoon
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|Fri, 11-11-2011 - 10:06pm|
Hi, a few years back I was more active on this board. I had HL and my boyfriend was LL and we didn't know how to communicate. At this point, he is still LL and I am not HL by any means but compared to him I guess I am. I have learned in the last 3 years to not initiate sex at all because of the rejection that I will face. I would almost rather not have sex than be rejected by him. Occasionally (my birthday, for example) I will initiate, knowing that he won't say no to me on that day. I have gotten used to not having sex, I have learned to not think about it and therefore I will not want it. Sometimes when I want it, I just pretend I dont and convince myself that I have better things to do or that I am too tired (which usually I am tired, however being tired was never an excuse!) Our relationship is good in all other areas, and when I don't ask for sex, it's good in all areas. We communicate about almost everything and our arguements are short lived-and as I have gotten older I have learned how to get what I want through compromise.
He is my best friend, and I can picture us being together forever, it's just easy (whether or not consistently romantic...) We are getting married in June, and I am very much looking forward to spending the rest of my life with him-knowing that our sex life will not change for the better. My concern is for the honeymoon. I know (strongly presume) that I will want sex at least a few times during our trip, and I would be shocked if he even wants it once. I don't want to spend our honeymoon feeling rejected and unwanted, and I also don't want to spend it trying to convince myself that I dont want sex. We are compromising with the location (I want beautiful resorty beach, he wants historical city) so wherever we go, there will be some relaxing by the water and some sightseeing. I just hope we can compromise on the sex as well.
Thanks for any advice you may have, but please don't tell me not to marry him.