I keep looking for a way out...
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|Tue, 04-17-2012 - 4:57pm|
I have been with my husband for about 4years now. I got married young, 2 months after I tuned 18, and now I'm finding myself regretting that I got married so young. My parents begged me not to get married, but of course I did it anyways and my parents have been ok with it and really like my husband. We hardly ever get in disagreements or argue, we both kind of just do our own things, I do hang out with him and his friends but he shows no affection to me at all. He hardly ever touches me anymore and so I feel like the only time he wants anything to do with me is when he needs sex. I know alot of people look at porn, I don't really care for it, but about 6 months ago I saw what he had been watching and I have felt even more disconnected from him. I don't feel like he really tries or cares about staying with me, but I know he needs me. I make quite a bit more money then him and have our whole marriage, and have been the one paying most of the bills. He can be pretty lazy and I am the type that stays busy, active and always doing something. More recently I have been finding thinkgs to do and to get out of the house more, I invite him but most of the time doesn't want to come and would rather lay on the couch and watch tv. I haven't been happy for awhile now and I don't feel attracted to him anymore. and I'm not feeling that I am in love with him anymore. I do care about him and don't want to hurt him or my family or his family. I haven't cheated on him and he hasn't cheated on me but I don't want to be with him anymore. I find myself wanting out and keep thinking about how I can get out of marriage without hurting anyone. I keep thinking that I hope he cheats on me so that I have a reason to leave.