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|Sat, 12-03-2011 - 11:49pm|
Just to warn everyone : this will be a long post.
I have been in this relationship for the past 4 years. He was everything I'd ever looked for in a partner, and truly and honestly my best friend. We have always been, and still currently are, in a long distance relationship, as we go to school about 3 hours away from each other. The distance has never been a factor for either of us before. Despite the distance, in the beginning our sex life was thriving. About a year into our relationship, the sex stopped completely due to a medical condition of mine. He stuck with me through all of it, and about a year ago, I was fully healed. We began having sex again, although it was nowhere near the same and infrequent.
Around this time (approx. a year ago), I began noticing a difference in him. He eventually confided in me that he had been depressed for quite some time, unhappy with his life, unsure of his future, and had even been considering suicide. I persuaded him to start seeing a counselor and getting help. About 2 months after this break down, I woke up to a Facebook message from a female "friend" of his - saying that they had been sleeping together and she thought I should know. You can all understand my devastation and shock - I didn't believe it until I called to question him about it. He was more upset than I've ever seen him, and claimed that it was a drunken one night stand and thats why he hadn't told me. Since he had never been shady before, I believed him wholeheartedly, and was even relieved that this may have been the root of his depression. We both agreed to try to work it out. I decided to change my plans and move home for the summer to be closer to him and be there for him in his fragile mental state after I found a loaded gun in his glove box. I knew he needed all the support he could get.
About a month after being home, I hacked into his email account and found out he was still talking to and seeing her. He then confessed that it was not a one time thing, and that he would end it immediately. He said that he did care about her, but had never fallen out of love with me, and was only with her because of his confusion and unhappiness with his life. Terrified of what he might do otherwise, I agreed to stick it out for the summer. Not too long after this incident, I discovered that he was still talking to her. I immediately broke it off, as I could no longer deal with it. We were completely apart for about a month, the hardest month of my life, as I had truly lost my best friend.