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|Thu, 03-27-2003 - 12:52pm|
He called me on Tuesday and begged me not to end the relationship and promised to do whatever was necessary to make it work. He also confesed about the phone call. He said that it was a call from a female friend that he hadn't spoken to in a while. He said that when he saw the phone number he didn't recognize it and when he realized who it was he was caught off guard. He said that he lied because he thought I would be upset. I believed him because I've done the same thing. I just never got caught. I lied because I knew he hated one of my guy friends. Eventually, I ended the friendship.
I guess I was vulnerable, instead of standing my ground I said I would think about getting back together. Now we're in limbo. We are not together but we are not broken up. I told him that I definitely did not want to see him anytime soon but that we could still keep in touch over the phone. I told him all the reasons why I thought our relationship wasn't working and what I expected of him. I told him that I just can't trust his promises that he is going to change. I told him that I need to see the proof of his changes first.
My friends and my parents have basically told me I'm stupid for even giving him a second thought. Now that I don't have them to turn to I feel more isolated then ever. I know that I maybe making a huge mistake by even talking to him but I did it anyways.