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|Sun, 08-04-2013 - 11:37pm|
My boyfriend and I have been together just about a year. We are the best of friends & have been since we were 15, so it's not like I didn't know this before ... Back in April 2012 he came to my apartment one weekend (way before we got together) and was messed up On Xanax. He went to jail in may & got out in August & since then has cut back his usage of xanax. It's been a problem on more than one occasion in the past year but I told myself "if this is gonna be the worst thing in our relationship then ill let it be" . Just last week my brake lights had stopped working & I dropped him off at work & then went to my fathers house so he could take a look. Well he ended up fixing them & when I went to pick my bf up from work I told him about it.. He was working with his cousin this night (who sells the Xanax & other pills) .. he asked me "what brakes?" And I just looked at him like wtf? I asked if he took a bar and he got all defensive & I said its just cause how could u forget? I just dropped u off a few hours ago... He said "look at me..... I promise you I will never take another bar as long as were together cause I don't ever want to hear this crap again"..... Mind you, I hadn't said "u better not take anymore" .. Like I said I let it be our biggest problem.
well the other night his cousin came by w some pain pills (legit reasons to have these!) anyways he came back with 4 yellow Xanax also. I said "I thought u weren't gonna do those anymore?" He said "oh I'm not i just got them cause he owed them to me & for nights I can't sleep "... So I let it go. Knowing there was a 99.9% chance he had just paid for them. tonight we were hanging out in the living room& all the sudden he started slurring & I looked on the coffee table and the jar with the pills had been moved . So I asked him "bae where are those bars ?" He said "oh outside in my bag......" I said "can u go get tthem for me?" So in a few min he went outside to smoke a cig & he didn't bring them in after I ahead reminded him again before we went outside to bring them back inside...... So I said "where are they?" He said "I ate them"... I said "what?" And he repeated himself .
My biggest thing is trust .. He lied to me about 3/4 times in this post.... For Xanax ...;-( my knees and back have some problems so I've been taking half of ssome perks w hhim when he gets tthem but I never abuse them. All I do is smoke weed I barely even drink. Am I making it seem like im okay with the drugs since im partaking .. Only for legit reasons ??
do I have a right to be upset? How do I go about fixing this problem for good? HELP! We are both 23 years old