Battling w/ trust issues still...
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|Fri, 11-02-2012 - 1:45pm|
I struggle with trusting my SO fully and not believing everything he says :( Logically, I know I need to mature, that this mentality is unhealthy so I try my best to ignore the skepticism I feel and just have faith, just trust that hes being honest with me every step of the way but it seems to be a very challenging task for me especially since I am an EXTREMELY territorial woman and paranoid about being cheated on. Hes very territorial as well but seems to be more secure because he doesn't seem to have trust issues like I do. Its just I constantly hear about infidelity in relationships and it literally sickens me. Just the thought of someone you loving so much betraying you like that is terrible. He has not shown me any real evidence to warrant my mistrust but the thing is, people usually have no idea they're being cheated on until months or even years into the relationship! I admit, that has made me paranoid. What if this guy is good at hiding those types of things? Especially since he has a FB and I dont ('cause I dont care for one yet). He tells me he doesn't communicate with other women on there but I dont believe him. I have asked him to delete his account before but he refused, says he likes keeping in touch with his "boys" on there, putting up videos and its good for networking if he ever wants to, that I need to trust him. I decided to not bring it up to him anymore but the mistrust resurfaces sometimes. I dont have money for a professional therapist. What do I do? I want to adopt a different mentality just to gain some peace in my mind but Im having a hard time :(