5th anniversary tomorrow.

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Registered: 09-28-2004
5th anniversary tomorrow.
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Thu, 08-04-2005 - 2:29pm
Hey everyone.
Tough times tomorrow, but I'm getting there. Tomorrow would have been my 5th wedding anniversary. It would have coincided with our relationship being 10 years.
My paperwork is still processing, waiting to go before the judge. I wish it was all over. Thankfully I haven't spoken to STBX in MONTHS so hopefully tomorrow will be just another day and he won't try to contact me.
But its tough. And I'm a little bit sad. I don't love STBX. I am not in love with him. I simply mourn the marriage, because I gave it all I had. And I mourn for the nice person he used to be that no longer exists.
Luckily the man I have started dating is very understanding (more so than I expected) and offered to let me have the day to myself, if I felt I needed it. But I don't. I am not wasting any more time or tears on him, or on what was. I did that last year, on our first "apart" anniversary, even though we had only been apart a matter of a few weeks. I am going to go out tomorrow night and continue on with my life and my friends as planned. I just come here to let it out. It sure is good to have you guys who understand! So many people think that just because I can be a bit sad think I am not over my marriage, or over STBX. They don't understand that if you were in something for a long time, it leaves marks, and sometimes it is healthier to acknowledge the marks than to deny. So I acknowledge and move on.
Thanks for listening.
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Registered: 03-19-2003
Thu, 08-04-2005 - 4:27pm

You've learned a lot along the way!.... Good for you!


Hope tomorrow goes well..... HUGS!


Karen ~ wildlucky4me

Karen ~ wildlucky4me ~

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Registered: 07-28-2005
Fri, 08-05-2005 - 1:11am

Then tomorrow will be a day of celebration...

Best,
Fiveyear

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Registered: 09-28-2004
Wed, 08-10-2005 - 5:32pm
Things went well. I spent the day running errands with the new man I am seeing. We had a lot of crappy little things to get done, and so we spent the day running from one place to another. Got a lot done! That night we were out back of his place bbq'ing and his neighbors invited us to come over for drinks. So we all sat out on the lawn late into the evening having a nice fun time... I barely thought about STBX all day.
thanks for the support.