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almost final
| Fri, 09-15-2006 - 11:56am |
well I finally talked to the STBX last night after no contact for 3 1/2 weeks. I told him I had seriously thought about it and that I wanted out. He said that we should go to counseling, but I told him that my heart wasnt into it at all and that when I had mentioned it about 6 months ago he had turned me down. He pleaded with me a lot to reconsider and think about what I was doing because it wasn't small beans. I stuck to my guns and he did say that in the end it was my decision. I am content with my decision and I am not regretting it at all, but I feel so guilty. He told me that it is horrible to come home to an empty house (which I have never done because I have family that lives here). His birthday is also next week, and he thanked me for such a wonderful present. I feel so emotionally down and I don't know what to do. I feel bad that he is alone and doesnt have any familial support to turn to, and also that I am partially the cause of this. I guess i just dont know how I am supposed to feel. It makes no sense to me, I was doing extremely well until last night and now I feel quite depressed. Thanks for listening, any advice/insight would be appreciated.

Take care of yourself,
Kelly