almost a meltdown last night :(

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Registered: 06-25-2006
almost a meltdown last night :(
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Thu, 09-07-2006 - 1:35pm

I just started the semester again (I teach) so the stress level in my life has just been elevated in a very huge way. I moved last wknd into my apartment and I go to the house to see my daughter every day. She stays there school nights and with me wknd nights. Although this whole thing was hard before, now it's just crazy hard. Last night I was so sad leaving her (didn't let her see tho) that I was crying all the way home. I just let myself cry tho, and felt better after. It's gonna be a long semester, I'm afraid....

I take it this gets easier eventually, right? (RIGHT??!!) ;)

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Registered: 03-26-2003
Thu, 09-07-2006 - 1:49pm

genetixgirl..

PG thinks this issue really depends upon how much you LEAN ON YOUR DAUGHTER for comfort during the times you're alone and not teaching?

After referencing your profile, I think you have QUITE A BIT TO OFFER ANY MAN! Maybe your past 'acquaintances' haven't been particularly happy...but this isn't an omen for the future!

We're all blessed with some sort of talent. (PG makes music, talks to friends on the radio, and visits an ivillage message board every now and then). And I think you should take those talents THAT YOU HAVE to 'others who will appreciate you for them!'

Try to focus on this instead of the stress....okay?

Hugs...

Pianoguy

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Registered: 06-25-2006
Thu, 09-07-2006 - 2:05pm

thank you for the kind words. a LOT. i am trying hard not to depend on either daughter because that's not their job, but sometimes i just need a hug and no one is there and that just sucks. i keep wondering if i am doing the right thing here. divorce has been discussed but no decisions have been made. my H still thinks we will reconcile, but i just don't know...there are so many big differences btn us, and altho he is a good person most days, we just don't click any more. i have outgrown him, which isn't completely hard to understand given that we met when we were 17, married after having our first daughter, and a lot has changed since then (we're 39 now).

anyway, your words were perfect, and the timing was perfect, and i just wanted you to know that. sometimes the kindness of strangers is very huge. :)