Another Good one... Instead of.......
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| Fri, 06-24-2005 - 4:42pm |
This one got me thinking. Again from the breaking up is hard to do board....
It's thinking of him only occassionally and being surprised when I do INSTEAD OF thinking of him every day...
It's feeling indifferent about whether or not he contacts me or not INSTEAD OF hoping/wondering if he will....
It's thinking "oh what does he want now?" INSTEAD OF being happy when he does contact me...
It's knowing that I dont need or even want him in my life anymore INSTEAD OF desperately trying to be his "friend"...
It's being able to recall memories of our relationship and smile INSTEAD OF crying or feeling too wistful...
It's being thankful for those memories and knowing him INSTEAD OF wishing I had never met him...
It's being able to take care of and put myself first INSTEAD OF having to worry about or think of him...
It's being carefree and leading a drama-free life INSTEAD OF always being in a fight or just anticipating the next one...
It's overcoming my insecurities and not caring whether he "forgets" about me INSTEAD OF acting foolish and trying to get his attention... ( i am guilty of that, i see now)
It's looking forward to dating new guys and being excited to meet new ones INSTEAD OF being afraid to date again or still longing to be with him... (headed there, yes!)
It's feeling sorry for his girlfriend INSTEAD OF feeling jealous... (cant wait to get there, hehe)
It's being happy for him INSTEAD OF hoping he ends up miserable...
It's not having the urge to mention him to my friends/family anymore INSTEAD OF bringing him up constantly...
It's knowing he belongs in the past INSTEAD OF trying to make him a part of my present/future...
It's realizing that I'm actually better off INSTEAD OF thinking that I'm missing out... (I think this was just for me)
It's loving myself and my life INSTEAD OF being sad/lonely/afraid...
She ended with a few quotes:
"Letting go is being thankful for the experiences that made you laugh, made you cry made you strong. It's about all that you have, all you had, all that you will soon gain. It's having the courage to accept change, to keep moving. It isnt to forget, not think about anymore, or ignore. It's not about pride, or blocking memories. No feelings of regret or anger. Letting go is not giving up...it's accepting, learning and growing up".
"You have to take the good with the bad, smile with the sad. Love what you've got, and remember what you had. Always forgive but never forget, learn from your mistakes but never regret. People change and things go wrong, just remember life goes on".
"Sometimes you have to let go of something to see if it was really worth holding on to." (this is special for me)
"Most people are searching for happiness. They're looking for it. They're trying to find it in someone or something outside of themselves. That's a fundamental mistake. Happiness is something that you are, and in comes from within"
"You can explore the universe looking for somebody who is more deserving of your love and affection than you are yourself, and you will never find that person anywhere"
That last one almost brought me to tears. Here Ive been all along desperately trying to give my love to my ex who didnt appreciate and I never thought about giving it to myself. I think about that now though....
God Bless to all of you and have a great weekend.

Karen ~ wildlucky4me ~