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are you scared?
| Mon, 05-28-2007 - 11:59pm |
for the first time in 15 years I will be at home alone--just me and the kiddo. I felt safe with a man in the house--and now the cheater is gone-- so is my security. Do you get scared at night? I am not sleeping and I hear every bump and creak.

It is hard and scary at first. I didn't sleep well for weeks - both because of the shock and because I was nervous being the only grownup in the house. But I am sleeping better now most nights. Like everything else in life you get used to it.
If you live in a house you might want to consider getting an alarm. It might make you feel more secure. If you live in an apartment, you could get a door alarm or someting.
It will get better I promise.
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Hugs, Brenda
Hugs, Brenda
Totally scared, panick stricken a lot of times if I think about it too hard. My son has a seizure disorder and ADHD, my daughter has asthma. I'm not afraid of breaking and entry so much, I'm afraid of being the only adult to deal w/ a crisis that may arise. I used to be a family with two grown ups that would throw themselves in front of a speeding train to protect the babies. Now I'm alone and my kids are with their functioning alchololic Dad every other weekend and 45 days over the summer, and I pray that he won't get drunk, pass out and not hear them cry in the night if something is wrong.
I have friends who say I should have stayed with him to ensure the kids were safe?? I actually thought when I left that the last DWI conviction (two years prior) would be enough for supervised visitation and such to see where that went. I know he loves those kids more than he loves himself....I hope he's not drinking when he has them (he can abstain for days and weeks at a time) but there's nothing I can do if he is ~ and that gives me horrible separation anxiety.
I miss my family unit, no matter how dysfunctional and toxic it was ~ it was my security, my home, for 9 years of dating and 11 years of marriage and children. A year and a half after the split, and I'm still scared~ and I still miss the sick SOB :(