Argh - Just venting!
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| Fri, 12-01-2006 - 1:27pm |
argh!! it'll be a year soon that I told my XH goodbye for good... long story short... we seperated and divorced in early 2005... at the end of 05 he came back around and we were talking a lot; mostly to get everything that happened during out split out in the open... it was nice and it felt like closure... and yes, i enjoyed talking to him, confusing as it was... but by the beginning of january 06 he couldn't make up his mind whether he wanted me (the woman in his life for 16+ years) or his new GF of not even 6 months - i never asked him to decide... he was the confused one!! In the end i decided i couldn't handle the emotional roller coaster he had me on and needed to start fresh in 2006... so, it's been since January/February 06 that we last exchanged emails (we have no children so why talk to each other??)...
Then BAM, out of the blue, he text messages me TODAY on my cell phone (a number i did NOT give to him!!) anyways, the message was innocent enough but it referenced an ongoing joke we shared each month on the 1st for the entire 16 years we were together (that's how i know it was from him)... then he wrote "hope all is well with you"... needless to say i was a little thrown by this... i figured since him and his GF bought a house together that i was far, far from his thoughts... then this... and believe me when i say that i have not and will not respond to it nor will i confront the person i think gave him my number... to me... silence is louder then anything you can ever say to someone.
i've tried my best to move on and i think i've done pretty well... but i'm never going to want to be his friend (and he is WELL aware of that fact!)... he ruined everything, and while i've forgiven him, i will never forget how he turned his back on me... never! i have no interest in what goes on in his life and i never ask his friends (some of them are my co-workers) how he's doing... but he asks about me and obviously one of them gave him my new cell phone nuber!! it's just frustrating! i'm just venting... thanks for listening!
Ali

Hugs, Brenda