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Call from an old friend
| Wed, 12-06-2006 - 10:01pm |
I'm so sorry I'm just losing it here this week, but I'm becoming overwhelmed again.
My best friend from junior high called me tonight. I haven't really spoken to her in a good 20 years, so I was surprised and happy to hear from her.
Then she tells me her mother showed her a picture of my kids. The picture is a studio photo taken on Father's Day and is of my ex, his gf, my son, my daughter. I knew they had gone and had taken "family" pics together, but had no idea their "family" photo was being given away to friends and family. I am shaking. I want to throw up and my head hurts. I cannot believe the photos have been given out in such a wide circle.
I want to cry, scream, punch him, and run him over with a very large vehicle.

Awww, sweetie... I am so glad you've got us to vent to... I did have to chuckle at the very large vehicle comment... now that could solve a lot of the xh issues we're having now couldn't it...
sigh...
Now, back in realityland... which sucks, I just want you to know that I am so sorry that you're having the difficult day you're having. I can see where that picture could make you sick, especially with everything else happening... I recommended a hot bubble bath in my last post to you... now I'm thinking a nice stiff drink may be a better suggestion... and no, I know it doesn't solve anything, but there were a couple of days during my separation that I was grateful to the alcohol for numbing some of the feelings I was having...
Good Luck... I'm thinking of you and wishing you peace... Keep us posted!
*hugs*
Julie
:) I second the motion for a drink, and if you have a couple of girlfriends around, hit the town for a nite out!! you definitely need one.
I know EXACTLY how it feels - rotten. on top of whatever betrayal, there is the feeling of being replaced - like a damaged piece that get changed at the shop, and life goes on. UGH - I still choke at that. Probably always will.
It will pass though. The life you are and will be building is going to be yours only, not an usurpation of someone else's. YOU only are going to star in it, with your children, and any new friends and/or partners you will choose to let in.
I did have that drink last night. Just one, and it smoothed me right out.
I just wish there was a way to avoid the two of them as much as possible. The gf is back to walking up to the doorstep with ex and kids and ignoring me again. Even called PAST me to my son to come BACK outside and get the jacket she was holding. Instead of just giving it to me.
This girl/woman is 24, has been divorced once already and was sad to lose her husband and stepson. Even though it's mean, I just want to scream at her to get her own damn family and stop trying to create one with my kids!
Good for you Gwen... heck, just after reading what you had typed, I started to feel like I needed one... I didn't partake, but what would that be... sympathy drinking, you know, like sympathy weight during pregancy? LOL
I have to admit that there are days when I wish my xh was closer so he and Joey could be more involved, but then I hear stories and the issues that can come about when they are closer and part of me is thankful (selfishly of course) that I don't have those issues to tackle... of course, I'd love for Joey to have a better relationship with his Dad, but I can only control what I can control...
I totally see what you'd like to say... just like I'd like to tell my xh's new wife, if she doesn't want to be a step-mom (she told me that point blank before my xh and I separated) that she should stop getting herself involved with men who have children--this is her second marriage and her first one also involved a man with a child... ugh...
How bout I break the news to yours and you break it to mine?
*hugs*
Julie
(Please note this is no exaggeration. I'd post a pic, but I don't want to start anything here.)
LOL, I know! It's comical really. When she and I had our confrontation weeks back, I was shaking the whole time, scared I was about to get an arse whippun'!
)))) I guess that makes more of her to LOOOOVE, huh?
Well, I am glad you had that drink. It feels terrible... and if any of you want to go and break the news to that little *** of my ex GF (who used to be my au-pair... so I know her well) that she should just stop doing her best to take over my life, that would be a fun thing to watch!!!
You know, I had in the last years my fun share of "family pictures" includind the little bitch, including yearly calendars and so on. What amuses me, is the though of when those two will finally lie in their own bed (without me metaphorically in the middle), they will loose interest in each other.... sadly, my DD knows her as her old baby sitter, and loves her - even if today she takes a bit of distance, she still talks to her, email with her, and the GF writes to her about what a good time she is having with her dad, and how much her dad loves her...