day went straight to heck
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day went straight to heck
| Fri, 06-24-2005 - 9:37pm |
well day started off as good as it can be and then H called......he has this way of being so mean and cold and hostile to me. It is just so painful...why do I love some one who can act this way?.....I just feel like my hope and self esteem are officially at zero......what a way to spend a friday night...I went ahead and went to the dr to get some anti anxiety medication. I think it will help....I hope it will help, I just wish that I could go to sleep and wake up with us being happy and together again.....I am just going to have to find a way to control myself. When we speak, I just want to beg him to give it another chance. Any thoughts of what I can do to help with this. I just put so much into our life that now I feel so sad. I have no good friends, my only good friend left me and he doesnt want me back. Then when he talks to me, he has the nerve to bring up how terrible our marriage has been. I am beginning to wonder if we have been in the same marriage here.Any way, I just hate this...I have always tried to be one of those really strong people that can get thru things... but I am just not feeling it now

Diane