day went straight to heck

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Registered: 08-31-2004
day went straight to heck
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Fri, 06-24-2005 - 9:37pm
well day started off as good as it can be and then H called......he has this way of being so mean and cold and hostile to me. It is just so painful...why do I love some one who can act this way?.....I just feel like my hope and self esteem are officially at zero......what a way to spend a friday night...I went ahead and went to the dr to get some anti anxiety medication. I think it will help....I hope it will help, I just wish that I could go to sleep and wake up with us being happy and together again.....I am just going to have to find a way to control myself. When we speak, I just want to beg him to give it another chance. Any thoughts of what I can do to help with this. I just put so much into our life that now I feel so sad. I have no good friends, my only good friend left me and he doesnt want me back. Then when he talks to me, he has the nerve to bring up how terrible our marriage has been. I am beginning to wonder if we have been in the same marriage here.Any way, I just hate this...I have always tried to be one of those really strong people that can get thru things... but I am just not feeling it now
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Registered: 01-24-2005
Sat, 06-25-2005 - 11:24am
I know what you are going through. The only friends I have are couples, and they are still friends with my STBX, so it makes it difficult. Have you considered going to a divorce support group? I went to one called Divorce Care, which is run through local churches. You don't have to be part of the church to go. It is a good place to get support and advice from people who know what you are going through, and you might make some new friends, too. They have a web site where you can search for a group in your area. I don't have the address, but you can google it easily. Hang in there, you will feel better, but it does take time.
Diane