Disallusioned after 1 year
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Disallusioned after 1 year
| Sun, 09-17-2006 - 12:16pm |
Sept 2, 2006 marked the 1 year anniversary of my divorce. For some odd reason I really bought into the fact that I'd be so much further along emotionally. As I look back over the last 18 months of my life ( adjusting to a move to a new state, a new job, getting my kids settled in new schools, new friends, the divorce, completely restructuring financially, buying a home...) no wonder I get so easily overwhelmed, I'm 30 pounds overweight, I cry myself to sleep and have gone back into therapy - it's so much. After being married to an alcoholic for 19 years - when he left I thought I'd finally be able to breathe. Oh I'm breathing alright - into a paper bag!! I know I need to give myself time - the hard stuff should be behind me now and life should settle in but - I'm tired and feeling weak and my self esteme is so beat up. Someone out there please - could you at least reasure me that this emotional stuff is all normal - I feel like I'm about to break. I want to be over this and like myself again. Thanks

Hey, go easy on yourself! You said --adjusting to a move to a new state, a new job, getting my kids settled in new schools, new friends, the divorce, completely restructuring financially, buying a home...)-- that is a LOT! You've acomplished so very much! I'm feeling very proud of you and I hope you are too :). Hugs!
Melanie
Hugs to You! Brenda
Edited 9/17/2006 6:56 pm ET by mebrenda
Hugs, Brenda
It does help to know I'm not crazy or alone (with all responsibilities sitting on my shoulders!). My x is 7 hours away but that doesn't keep him from calling - talking to the kids and then wanting to talk to me - asking me how I am (because he is an alcoholic and has not been able to move on with his life because I carried him around for 19 years). It is hard to make the break - they were part of our supposedly "happily ever-after" plan that fizzled miserably. I feel many days like I'm just getting "through" the day. Work, kids, school, homework, dinners....repeat, repeat, repeat. Time for me is pretty non-existent since I have no family nearby and friends are great but have lives too. Thank you so much for reaching out to me - take care. Carolyn