Divorced,and fighting lonelyness

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Registered: 08-23-2008
Divorced,and fighting lonelyness
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Sat, 08-23-2008 - 2:54pm

my name is Corinne, I am 27 year old divorced female. I was with my guy from 2005,to 2008. I met him in November 2005,and we started dating August 16,2006 so we could get to know each other,and take things slow. I thought he was right for me for.He Propsed to me like 2 weeks before we got married April 2,2007.I noticed his love was there for me. Shortly after we got married I started to notice changes were going on,with my spouse.I thought nothing of it,and I was just thinking he was having a rough time,I thought things would get better in between us. Things satrted going down hill after my Grandma Passed away January 7,2008 my spouse stopped caring for me,and he wouldn't even go to my grandma's Funeral with me,for support,so I only had my family helping me through this rough time of her passing. He held me in his arms the day I got the Dreded phone call from my mom.After that day he baecame more distant,and stopped loving me,he walked out on me on Mother's Day weekedn most of all,when I needed him the most,in my life. I recieved Divorce papers at the end of June 2008,by a sheriff most of all,which hurt twice as bad,when you have a sheriff serve you,it hurts so bad,you feel like your heart has been ripped out of your heart.I am still going through the emotions of the Divorce,and I am single,once again.I thought i would enjoy the single life,but I don't.I am just used to having someone in my life. I haven't seen,or spoke to my ex since Mother's day weekend which was 3 months ago.I don't know what I did to deserve a Divorce? I loved my spouse with all my heart,I was always faithful,honest,true to him,and Loyal to him,and he had the nerve to hurt me,and rip my life apart. I am also going through a 6 months,to a year recovery from a Blood Transfusion,and i also have Artrial Fibrilation permently.I have Scar Tissue built up in my arm,from my blood Transfusion,and IVY.My vein is pretty much history after my blood transfusion,and I am dealing with that on my own,and I am just now on the beginners Journey of fighting to get my health back to 100 %

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Registered: 12-03-2005
Sun, 08-24-2008 - 3:49am

Dear pieper,

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Registered: 08-23-2008
Sun, 08-24-2008 - 6:16am
Thank you for writing,it helped to have someone understand what I am going through. I do agree totally, I just wish I had some answers from my ex,ovf what caused him to leave me for no reason, Did he get scared in the relationship? or did he simply just fall lout of love with me? I still have a void in my heart of unexplained explanations from him,I know he will never tell me,I just wish, I knew what I did wrong in the Relationship. I did recieve a e-mail mfrom his mom last month telling me that they were playing with my heart, my mind, my emotions for 3 years,and they never did like me? why did they have to hurt me like that? especially when I am a sensitive person,who gets hurt easily. I am going through this Blood Transfusion Recovery all alone,and fighting the worst battle of my life. I left my ex's mother a meassge to let them know I was hospitalized,and went through a blood transfusion,just to be nice,and polite.and they have nerver sent a response back. I'm taking that they could care less. is that what that means? just out of Curiosity? I hope to hear from you soon.