Do you ever miss him so bad it hurts?

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Registered: 10-27-2005
Do you ever miss him so bad it hurts?
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Mon, 03-20-2006 - 10:22am

I don't know what is wrong with me. First of all, we've been separated for 18 months now, legally divorced for over a year- I was totally fine, didn't miss him much at all. In fact, I enjoyed being away from him. Now I find myself sitting around daydreaming about things we did, places we went, our old house, our old pets, things we would do with our daughter, everything. What makes it worse is that this was all MY decision, now he is happily moved on and getting married to this woman- he is so much happier not being with me. I am a complete wreck, and to just complete my wreckage I am 33 weeks pregnant (due May 7th), am single, and the father of my baby annoys the hell out of me and I don't want to be with him ever. My life is a mess, his is glorious. Now i'm going to be the single mother of two, with nobody. And I don't think it's just "this guy" that annoys me, I think any guy would. I can't stop comparing everyone to my ex, nobody even comes close to comparing to him. Why was I so miserable with him? Why did I want this divorce?? He & I had a great marriage and I don't know how I couldn't see that. Now i'm left with this crappy life and will never be happy with anyone again.
Sorry for the long rant, i'm just sitting here crying & upset- wondering if anyone else ever does this.

Lainie

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Registered: 03-11-2004
Mon, 03-20-2006 - 12:47pm
Lainie, I am sorry you are so unhappy with your life. I understand though. Our situations are totally different, but I still miss my ex and dream about him coming home. Once in a while I even think he might think about it. That said I cannot allow myself to live in the what if's all the time. I am moving forward. Slowly making my life what I want it to be. With or without him I will be fine. I will figure my way around this world and so will you. I don't know if you have faith or not, but I believe God takes care of all my needs and find great comfort in that. Hugs to you!
Hugs, Brenda

Hugs, Brenda 

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Registered: 03-19-2003
Wed, 03-22-2006 - 2:55pm

Hi Lainie.... 33 weeks.... HORMONAL?????? :-)


Karen ~ wildlucky4me ~