Emotional Rollercoaster
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| Tue, 11-22-2005 - 1:16am |
Hello All,
It has been a long time since I posted and here it is 1:00 a.m. EST and I just need to be heard. I have been waiting for a long time to put this divorce behind me. I have been doing some really productive things with myself these days despite everything (Raising 2 kids on 1 income is no picnic). I have tried very hard to focus on the good things (I did get the most important things/ the kids). I have learned to appreciate what I have not what I lost (my house etc). I have gone through a lot of emotions in the last few years and I have managed to keep myself together despite everything. However today, I found out he FINALLY signed the FINAL divorce paper. My heart seems as though it has been ripped out... This is all I have wanted for a long time, however, it seems as if everything has hit me all over again. I guess it doesn't help that my daughter told me his girlfriend is pregnant. Sometimes, I just can't help asking myself how I ended up like this. Why was I handed this... I quess my other issue is that it will be 2 years in December and I can't even manage to even begin to get a personal life. I have wrapped myself into my children and my job. I spend many nights sitting on this computer wondering what to do next. Gosh, I don't think I will ever get use to sleeping alone. I guess I just need to vent... Need to deal.... This seemed the best place... Since I know no one else would understand...

princesshas...
Once upon a time...Pianoguy went through the same scenerio that you've described in your post.
While I'm sure you've been wondering if your NOW EX HUSBAND would ever sign the papers, it's often a difficult issue to accept once the deed is done?
Although you're going to hear tons of stories about your husband's new lady (as well as the child she's carrying), you have to try and tell yourself (over and over again): "THAT CHAPTER OF MY LIFE IS OVER AND BETTER THINGS ARE POSSIBLE!"
It takes a lot of courage (and guts) to be a single woman and single mom. And while you probably aren't too crazy about the idea of "sleeping alone"----this ISN'T necessarily "a life sentence!"
Go through the transition period (and believe me, the upcoming holidays will be tough) with the thought that newer and better people are going to enter your life during the New Year ahead.
Best wishes and warm thoughts...
Pianoguy