Feeling Paralyzed and Panicky -- Newby

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Registered: 11-10-2006
Feeling Paralyzed and Panicky -- Newby
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Fri, 11-10-2006 - 8:42pm

Hi all,

I'm writing because I have been separated since August when I saw my husband throw our autistic 11 1/2 year old son across a room. Two of our three kiddos have Asperger's Syndrome and I have been pretty isolated socially, since it is so hard to make playdates or plan get togethers with people when you don't know what kind of a day the kids are going to be having. My last professional experience was 11 years ago (left to take care of my son when he started showing signs of difficulty)and I have a master's degree -- a combo which seems to be keeping potential employers away from me in droves. My parents live 400 miles away -- mom has debilitating arthritis, dad has MS -- and I haven't even told them the truth about the separation.Guess the upshot is this -- I am living in a state where I have few friends, no family and no easy shot at getting a decent job. I am trying to live each day well -- being kind to my sweet little kiddos, looking for the good in each moment, sending out applications and just generally trying to "git'er done." But I am feeling so lost and lonely and incompetent. Any thoughts on how to "suck it up" and move along? I feel like I will never move past this phase in life.

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Registered: 03-19-2003
Sun, 11-19-2006 - 3:16am

Hey there... when I read your post, I thought about my friend Aurelia (that I met here at iVillage).


Karen ~ wildlucky4me ~