Feeling pushed into a corner
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|Sat, 05-31-2014 - 3:34am|
Without going into too much detail, 5 weeks ago I found out my husband was doing things he shouldn't be doing on the internet, also implicating me in this without my knowledge. When I showed him the evidence he admitted to it but didn't think it was that big a deal and certainly wasn't a marriage breaker. However, just under 2 years ago I had found something else out that he had been up to on the intenet, a lot milder. He apologised, said it was the first time he had ever done anything like this and would never do it again. I forgave him and since the incident 2 years ago we bought a bigger house with a much bigger mortgage. He is the main breadwinner and I work a few hours a week to work around our 2 young children who are school age.
My husband is very remorseful, has moved into his parents at my request and last week we tried to work things out but I just don't feel the same about him and know in my heart that I never will again. I feel like I don't know him.
Yesterday after a bit more snooping I found out that he has an e-mail account I never knew about and when I googled it he had suggested to a woman that they meet up for sex.
Bearing in mind this only happened 5 weeks ago, he is already telling me that I need to go find a full time job and the house needs to go on the market as soon as possible. I don't expect to stay in the house forever but my emotions are all over the place. I know I don't want to be with him anymore and am applying for jobs but feel like I am going to burst into tears at an interview - everything is changing so rapidly and I am struggling to cope although I know I have to for the sake of our children.
Any advice would be appreciated. Thanks.