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Feeling so sad
| Sun, 12-24-2006 - 11:03am |
Today is Christmas Eve - me and my two children are going to eat at my husband's family at lunch and then will come back to my parents at 3:00 this afternoon to eat (lots of eating - and I'm not even a big eater). I started not to go to his family and just send the kids - but they insisted that I come also - said I was part of the family and that family should be together. We haven't heard from husband since Thursday (I think it was) - he was suppose to be here Friday a.m. to bring me money for Christmas presents and to spend the holidays with us. He has never showed up or called again. I can't figure out why he came last Saturday night - he spent the night then - this was the first time that he has spent a night in the house since September 17th...things went well that night - he left on Sunday morning about 11:00 a.m. taking a load to Baltimore, MD. and said he would be back - we did talk to him during the week. His mama was crying on the phone yesterday - I felt so bad for her - she hasn't talked to him in about 7 months - which really isn't that unusual for him - but I talk to her everyday. Her crying made me so sad - she said she had turned him over to the Lord and that I would be better off if I did the same. I had some friends give me money - in an envelope left on my desk - the last day of work - so I have been able to buy the kids presents - but he doesn't know that. As far as he knows they will be getting nothing...I'm back to my original assumption that something in his brain has just snapped. He isn't even doing things logically - I sent him a message over the phone today that even father's in prison talk to their children. My 13 year old is devastated...he had finally started doing a little better and then his daddy shows up last weekend - just like things were going to start getting better and BAM - here it goes again. I guess after reading some of the other posts that I should be so grateful that his family love me enough to want me to be a part of them still - of course I have been for 25 years now. This is my mama's first Christmas since her mama died in June - so she is sad - and we aren't having the big crowd we always have - nobody wants to come - and she is worried and mad at my husband also. They refinanced their home Friday to keep me from losing mine. Just wanted to vent a little. Merry Christmas everyone!

Gal,
I'm a long-time lurker and I've been following your story and wonder how you are doing. I wonder if your H might have some mental illness (bi-polar or something like that) issues to act the way he does and to be going off on those tangents the way he does. It must be so difficult for you and the kids. From what your posts have suggested, it seems as though you did everything you could.
I hope this year is a happier one for you.
Hang in there and let us know how you're doing.
LuvMyLabradors