Hey Buckeye Only you can figure out why you feel so bad, but here's my take. You have invested 18 years in a marriage, been carrying on all the child/household duties,and still got a bunch of s*&% going on. It's always so hard because we think of the children, and what they are going through. I think if we were going through this with no children it would be a lot easier. We could deal with only our pain. I totally understand that.
I feel like I am living a nightmare as well. Don't know whether you read my post about STBX homeless, now he is putting a wedge between the kids and I and the kids and their grandparents (on my side)--typical manipulative, alcoholic behaviour, as you know. Kids won't even talk to me.
You are dealing with a lot of crap right now, and it must be terribly hard. Just dig down and find that inner strength we all know you have (you've given it to us many times) HANG IN THERE AND BIG HUGS!
Hey Buckeye
Only you can figure out why you feel so bad, but here's my take. You have invested 18 years in a marriage, been carrying on all the child/household duties,and still got a bunch of s*&% going on. It's always so hard because we think of the children, and what they are going through. I think if we were going through this with no children it would be a lot easier. We could deal with only our pain. I totally understand that.
I feel like I am living a nightmare as well. Don't know whether you read my post about STBX homeless, now he is putting a wedge between the kids and I and the kids and their grandparents (on my side)--typical manipulative, alcoholic behaviour, as you know. Kids won't even talk to me.
You are dealing with a lot of crap right now, and it must be terribly hard. Just dig down and find that inner strength we all know you have (you've given it to us many times) HANG IN THERE AND BIG HUGS!