Good news!

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Registered: 01-29-2005
Good news!
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Thu, 11-09-2006 - 7:48pm

Some of you may remember back last December when I first started posting here that I was having some pretty serious emotional issues. I was so upset by what was happening after ex moved out that I was having panic attacks most of the day and episodes of sobbing off and on all day. I just couldn't function. That is why I ended up going on antidepressants.

The good news is that I now almost completely off of them. It took some time, and it wasn't easy, but I feel so much better now. I feel refreshed. I don't feel tired all day long, and am actually feeling more optimistic, cheerful, and have more energy than I have had in a long time. I'm taking a horse pill of a multi-vitamin AND a B complex vitamin as well. This, along with exercising on a stationary bike (when I'm not being lazy) seem to be doing the trick.

Although I still have my times where I let myself get angry about what STBX does, I'm doing much better with that and feel like I'm coping better with all the changes that have occurred this last year. I'm doing better about letting go, which is VERY hard for me. I'm not stressing about him bringing gf to meetings, etc. where I feel it's not appropriate. Instead I've let go and realized that no matter how much I kick and scream he's going to continue being a jackass. I've paid my half of school expenses that we agreed to split with a note attached saying that the second half is to be paid by ex, and gave his phone number. Keeps me out of the middle! I've also accepted my daughter's teacher's offer of scheduling separate parent/teacher conferences. This way I'm not worried about him bringing gf with him and having to discuss my daughter's education with her there. I'm realizing the more I try to fight it, the more power it gives them over me. They KNOW how to push my buttons. I know I just have to keep letting them do their thing and remember that no matter how they try to make things look it doesn't mean it's real.

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Registered: 03-19-2003
In reply to: gwen227
Thu, 11-09-2006 - 11:11pm

:-)


Karen ~ wildlucky4me ~