Hard to say goodbye, and hard to decide
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Hard to say goodbye, and hard to decide
| Sun, 08-10-2008 - 5:01pm |
I am 24, and had been with my husband since I was 15. We were always on again, off again. We got married the end of 06, and I left him may of this year. When I left I didn't even attempt to hide the fact that I intended to be with an old coworker of mine, one that he had his suspicions about while I was still pregnant. I am now living with said coworker, and things are a bit bumpy, but okay. I thought that my husband and I had come to the agreement that we were finally over for good, and there was no going back. I knew when we had that discussion that I still loved him and wanted more than anything to be with him... but he has always been a pathological liar, and has rarely ever kept a promise. (He promised he would have me and our son in a new place before he was born in January, by may we were still living with his mom.) Just yesterday, he asked me when we were going to get back together, told me that he loved me and that he would get rid of my boyfriend for me, as long as we could be a family again. I love my boyfriend, and I love my husband; I miss the family I always dreamt of while my husband and I were dating, and I believe that my boyfriend and I may have a real shot at what I missed out on with my husband. I'm so confused right now. I know that I love them both, and that I love them in two very different ways. When my husband explained to me that he wanted to get back together and that he wasn't going to back down, I was very tempted to call my boyfriend and tell him he needed to leave. But he has nowhere to go, and I do care about him a lot. I don't know what I'm supposed to do. I don't know if I want to go back to my husband because I'm comfortable with him and there is so much past there, or if I'm really not happy and I just miss him. Any one..... please help.

Hummm.... I think I'd start by living on your own and then tell your husband if he's serious that he's talked the talk, now it's time to walk the walk and see if he can actually live up to his words.
Karen ~ wildlucky4me ~