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| Mon, 02-13-2006 - 3:11pm |
I just got a call from my lawyers office that a "large" package has been delivered from my stbx lawyer's office. Right away my stomach was in knots.
I have had to suspend visitation until we get into court because of the "antic's" of my stbx & gf (ie. 'necking' in front of the kids, gf undressed in front of ds). He refuses to get separate bedroom for the 2 of them.
Whenever I hear something from his lawyer I get sooo sad about the kid's relationship with their dad. He claims he is making $50,000 less than he made when we were together.
In Canada it is no fault divorce so the child support is on a "table". This brings child support waaayy down. He has sent me his "schedule" for the next 6 mos. He is unavailable for some of "his" weekends so he will not see the kids for another 5 weeks. He has "offered" to take the kids on "my" weekends (because his gf will be working so no lost time with her) I refused as I work every other weekend so it is my precious time with them.
I called him today, haven't talked to him in about 3 weeks. I just started spouting off about how he is not taking responsibility for his children. It just gets back to the same thing...he tells me how he is so "proud" of me that I am self-sufficient, that I am taking responsibilities, because when we were together I never "did anything". He wanted me to stay home & raise the children but resented me for having to come home & do "all the work". He knows how to hurt... I have always thought I was a bad mother and wife, especially now. I have always felt inadequate. I'm not really "good" at anything.
He was so condescending. Old habits die hard. I listened for a while then, after he lied too many times in the conversation I told him I was tired of listening to lies and hung up. Not before he told me that I was still in love with him & I should just "get over it".
what and arrogant s*b..
I do still love the man I married, but he is not him anymore. I don't think I have loved him for a long time...just too dependant. I really feel like I wasted 12yrs of my life, but then I look at my beautiful kids, how could I even think that?
But how do I move on from here? Just when I think I have a handle on this, I "lose" it.
Next court date is on March 9th, which happens to be the day stbx & gf move into their new house together..how nice.
Annette

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You got that right!......
My EX SO was so jealous of my kids.... compared to
Karen ~ wildlucky4me ~
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