Having a rough time today

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Registered: 02-22-2006
Having a rough time today
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Thu, 07-13-2006 - 1:37pm

I'm finally moving out tomorrow. After five years of a loveless marriage, I'm finally doing it. I've been crying all day and even called my soon-to-be-ex in tears just saying I was having a tough time of it all. We don't have anything together other than a dog. He's never been overly affectionate and works when I'm home and is home when I'm at work. He's been mean, cruel and hateful yet I can't stop myself from being upset. I know it's natural, but why do I hurt? He's said I'm a terrible wife and have no idea of what a wife should be....it's just that I'm not the kind of wife he wants...someone who waits on him hand and foot and takes care of his every wish. I went to school for too long to give myself up completely and be his puppet.

Anyway, I'm fine one minute and then break down in tears the next. I know it's natural and I just need to let it happen and get it out of my system. I'm just tired of hurting. On top of everything else, my best friend who said he would be there to talk me through it (he lives 1300 miles away), sends me an e-mail to say the woman he's dating (who is also married with kids but is cheating) has an issue with our friendship and if he doesn't stop talking to me, they are over. He wants to give the relationship with her a chance so we need to stop communicating. I only have one other friend....again, 500 miles away! I feel so alone!

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Registered: 03-19-2003
Thu, 07-13-2006 - 4:11pm

My best girlfriend moves about the country; her husband is in the Air Force.


Karen ~ wildlucky4me ~