Having Trouble clearly telling my truth
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Having Trouble clearly telling my truth
| Tue, 03-29-2005 - 8:32am |
I am having trouble being clear about how I feel to my STBX. I am not being honest in my words and actions. This feels really gross. The truth is I feel ready to move on. I don't know that I love him, and I'm sure I'm no longer in love with him. I don't like the person I become though our interactions, and some of his behaviors has been so destructive to me taking good care of myself that I don’t think we are friends. I am mad at him. Angry, hurt and betrayed this is how I feel. Also, that I want no contact after Sunday (the day he moves out) until we have to sigh the papers. I want this devorce bad, and will be happy when it is all over. Anyone else had trouble, in the beging, comuncating how the felt? What did you finally do about it? Would love advice and just some hugs. TIA
Blessing to all,
Anna
Blessing to all,
Anna

Anna,
I have had this problem as well. I can be mad as heck at him one day and then the next I will miss some things about him. I think it is normal to feel that way.
It's a roller coaster. I won't lie about that, but the good news is it does get better. I think for me I just separated myself from him. I didn't see him for awhile after I filed for divorce. He stopped talking, paying and visiting us after I filed for 3 months. That helped. He has also done some rotten things.... that makes it easier too.
I do understand where you are coming from, even today, almost 2 years after he left me I still get confused. It's hard to leave a situation that has been your life for so long and then move on just like that. Emotionally, it's hard. Mentally, it makes you stronger.
Take everyday as it comes. It will get easier.
Hugs,
Angelena
Yes, I experienced this as well.
In the beginning I knew I wanted a divorce, because I was just DONE but I told him I wanted to separate. I didn't want to hurt him anymore than how much it hurt me to tell him I wanted the separation. I also thought that if we separated then later it would be easier for me to tell him that I wanted the D.
Now that he's done alot of horrible things to me, it's alot easier not to like him and feel sorry for him!
Hi all,
I feel the same way. I cannot communicate with my hub. He does not know that D is an option I have been considering. My daughter and I are going to take a trip back to our home town..for maybe an extended stay. And there is where I will be able..to comunicate with him as openly as possible.
Hang in there:)