He apologized and it broke me

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Registered: 07-03-2003
He apologized and it broke me
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Thu, 05-01-2008 - 4:01pm
We are separated...so much drama....and on the phone today we talked about how we'll work out everything for the divorce, we agreed on everything without even an argument...he was normal for the first time (emotionally abusive and was escalating to physical) and when we were done, he said, "I wanted to say...I'm sorry...for everything I did to you." And it broke me down, I just started crying, I had all this strength back again after everything he's done to me..I took way too much things I never thought I could, but when he apologized, it just hit me, that I'm losing my family, my husband, I know it wasn't perfect, it was far from it, so then why am I so sad???

 

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Thu, 05-01-2008 - 4:45pm

I do know what you mean.

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Registered: 03-30-2008
Thu, 05-01-2008 - 6:46pm

Losing the dream is so sad for me. And when I think about the reality my children will have to go through, as children of divorce, it depresses me even more. I'm playing ostrich this week--keeping my head in the sand. I'll begin really dealing with things this weekend when I have to see him. And then later this month when I meet with the attorney.


On the plus side, I feel like I seen a glimpse into the person, the woman I was 10 years ago when this whole mess started. It's hard to explain...I just feel like it's possible to find her again...without him clouding the way.


Hang tough everyone!

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Registered: 03-26-2003
Thu, 05-01-2008 - 9:11pm

I think we all know what you're feeling.