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He called yesterday...
| Wed, 10-12-2005 - 8:49am |
My ex called yesterday. I hadn't talk to him for over a week and half, since I found out he forwarded all my emails to his gf, and found out he book his wedding (and ah I haven't even received the divorce papers!)
He called and said "hope you have a few minutes to talk. I took care of the insurance. I try back a little later. Hope your doing well"
Hmph! Hope I'm doing well? He doesn't care. He like totally forwarded all my personal intimate email to his gf. Am I doing well?!?!? Oh and it only took a month and a half of constant calling from my insurance for him to finally get it fixed.
But all I keep thinking is how he has slept with her and now she's totally manipulating him and he's just not dealing with our seperation or us. A friend told me a story about a friend of hers. The girl was crying "never again" no man, and then she went out on a date with a guy who had a tough divorce and slept with him the first night. Bham she's engaged again to this guy. He has lots of money and they say "first marriage for love, next for money". She says he's needed and stuff. The funny part is the friend never told her friend about the first date sex. So she's acting like it all lovey dovey.
Anyhow I started thinking, and I know I am naive, I haven't dated in like 10 years (our marriage was for 7 of it), but I bet that hussy slept with him the first night they went out. She like totally manipulated him. And after reading my email promises, which basically spelled out everything he wanted, she's like totally using it to control him. Now I don't solely blame her, I blame him too for falling for it. But god I would never have guessed there were people out there like that. She knew he was married!!!
Now all I can think of is how all he wanted was a lay and that our marriage is so easily forgotten over a (excuse the language) ska#ky lay? Why do I care about what he does? Why do I obsess about it? I'm doing all the right stuff to heal, like goign to the gym, journally, counselling, but my mind just goes over what a tool he really is......how he's sleeping with her and how she's got total control over him. The funny part is he says to me in the marriage I tried to control him....funny I never thought to use sex to do it!!!.......How do I stop this thinking......how, how how....its driving me crazy! Why do I care.....
He called and said "hope you have a few minutes to talk. I took care of the insurance. I try back a little later. Hope your doing well"
Hmph! Hope I'm doing well? He doesn't care. He like totally forwarded all my personal intimate email to his gf. Am I doing well?!?!? Oh and it only took a month and a half of constant calling from my insurance for him to finally get it fixed.
But all I keep thinking is how he has slept with her and now she's totally manipulating him and he's just not dealing with our seperation or us. A friend told me a story about a friend of hers. The girl was crying "never again" no man, and then she went out on a date with a guy who had a tough divorce and slept with him the first night. Bham she's engaged again to this guy. He has lots of money and they say "first marriage for love, next for money". She says he's needed and stuff. The funny part is the friend never told her friend about the first date sex. So she's acting like it all lovey dovey.
Anyhow I started thinking, and I know I am naive, I haven't dated in like 10 years (our marriage was for 7 of it), but I bet that hussy slept with him the first night they went out. She like totally manipulated him. And after reading my email promises, which basically spelled out everything he wanted, she's like totally using it to control him. Now I don't solely blame her, I blame him too for falling for it. But god I would never have guessed there were people out there like that. She knew he was married!!!
Now all I can think of is how all he wanted was a lay and that our marriage is so easily forgotten over a (excuse the language) ska#ky lay? Why do I care about what he does? Why do I obsess about it? I'm doing all the right stuff to heal, like goign to the gym, journally, counselling, but my mind just goes over what a tool he really is......how he's sleeping with her and how she's got total control over him. The funny part is he says to me in the marriage I tried to control him....funny I never thought to use sex to do it!!!.......How do I stop this thinking......how, how how....its driving me crazy! Why do I care.....
