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He said he's sorry.
| Fri, 04-20-2007 - 8:21am |
He finally said he is sorry for everything. Now if he would only say it to me personally, and not in an email. But, it's a start. We've been separated for 3 months tomorrow. He said last week that he does want a divorce. I don't want it, but I'm starting to accept that I can't change his mind. Well, more later. I need to get to work. Have a good Friday!
Melissa

Hi Melissa.... I hope that your week is off to a good start.
Karen ~ wildlucky4me ~
He came over Sunday to get some things, and we ended up talking for almost 6 hours. He said he's sorry to me several times. He said that the mean and hurtful things he was saying last month were just to make me hate him, because he figured that if I hated him, he would be able to move on. He apologized, and admitted that his arguments were weak (which they really were). He admitted that he misses me. He said that he still loves me deep down. But he's still not sure what he wants. He says half of him wants to be with me in this marriage, and then the other half is just confused and doesn't know what he wants. I told him to listen to the first half :)
We have a date tonight. He wants to try again. I'm leaving it all up to him this time. Last month I came on way to strong and pushed too much and too fast and it scared the heck out of him. So, I'm trying not to obsess and just go with it. He says that a date once a week and maybe a phone call or two a week with a few emails in between is all he wants right now. I'm letting him take the lead. Of course, I want more but if I push, he'll just run again. He doesn't want to take things too fast. He wants to be 100% sure before he decides to move home again. (He moved out on Jan. 21, moved home 2 days later, and then moved out again Jan. 31). I want him to be sure too.
But, I am afraid of him enjoying what he's got right now. An occassional companionship with me, and then his freedom to go hang with the guys daily, whatch sports, get drunk, stay out all night, etc. See, there I go again, obsessing too much and thinking ahead instead of just letting it happen.
I've been posting on the "Breaking Up is Hard to Do" board since January. I don't know how to link those posts, but if anyone wants to know more background on my situation, it's all there.