He wasn't so bad, just bad for me....
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He wasn't so bad, just bad for me....
| Mon, 11-07-2005 - 7:45pm |
my divorce will be final 11/14 after almost 14 years of marriage. to me the marriage the should have ended 4 yrs ago. I stayed in it for our kids but then thought,n"what am i teaching them?" to stay w/someone and be unhappy? He is a great provider but that was our main problem. he worked 4 or 5 days 12 hr shifts then went to the gym for 2 hours everyday. never having time for his family. i was basically a single mom. weird though, the biggest thing i have to adjust to is working fulltime. right now i'm a little scared knowing that our lifestyle is going to change.But at least my daughter will learn that she needs to be happy with herself first. and my son will learn that a man can be a provider but he can NEVER leave his family behind. what's money w/out a family to enjoy it with???i know my kids and myself will be ok but still it's still a bit scary. I hope that things will continue to be amicable between the ex & myself but everyone keeps saying that things will change when he gets someone else. I hoping that having been his 3rd wife that he's tired of marriage and will remain alone at least for a while...
i am anxious for my/our new life to begin....
i am anxious for my/our new life to begin....

funny though..I'm upset he is gone..or is it just the feeling of failure..I'm still not sure..he really wasn't around enough to be a good father..
ultimately he is the one that left...throwing me for a loop...I still feel burned..
even if it was for the best...
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As for giving up the house for the weekend that he has them..wow...I just couldn't do that..for a couple of reasons..he says he is "not comfortable" here any more..that & he has done some awful things to me...getting me to sign over $80,000 to him a week before he left..moving in the next day with a woman (he is not with her now)..
I just hope I can get to the place where I feel good letting them spend time with their dad ...& feeling good about a situation I couldn't control...