He's never gonna change....

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Registered: 01-13-2004
He's never gonna change....
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Thu, 08-31-2006 - 5:20pm

So, after my bout of drunk dialing, yesterday, my STBX brought the kids home from a 2 day visit. For some reason, I got all choked up and told him I missed him! He didn't have much to say, of course, I know he's still communicating/seeing the OW. Got the same reaction as I did the night I drunk dialed.

After 2 days of a broken washing machine, a flooded basement, finding out my cousin has bone cancer and crazy work, now this!

Stupid me. So today, he calls me and starts rambling on about all the issues we had, blah blah blah. I did this and I did that and how now I'm losing weight, etc. He made me so mad! And I'm so afraid that I gave him the impression that I really did miss (well, I kinda do) but I can just hear him and the OW laughing at me on the phone now!

I know my decision was the right one and I know I would never reconcile. But I sent him wrong message (like I always have) that I still need him. Kicking myself in the shorts again today.

Just wanted to share. Thanks everybody for reading. This emotional roller coaster is off the track this week! UGH!!!!

Jennifer

Proud Mom of Travis (15) and Mandi (10)

and our pets, Sully the Dog and Till

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Registered: 03-19-2003
Thu, 08-31-2006 - 9:59pm
We all do stupid things... and we all "recover" from them, pick ourselves up, and RUN happily into the distance.

Karen ~ wildlucky4me ~

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Registered: 07-08-2004
Fri, 09-01-2006 - 11:13am

As you have now learned, alcohol, the phone, and the ex just don't mix! You made a mistake....it's OK. Next time, try writing or journaling about how you feel....or come here and post!


Trust me, people have done far worse than calling their EXs/STBXs in a moment of silliness.


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Registered: 08-16-2005
Sat, 09-09-2006 - 4:37pm
Jen I haven't been here for a while but I'm still wondering why you feel you are required to listen to him when he goes on and on about what YOU do wrong. This seems to be a pattern with him and unfortunately your pattern is to sit and listen to the abuse he dishes out. You have to learn to break that.

Smile,

Deirdre