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| Thu, 03-10-2005 - 9:28pm |
Hello all, I'm new here. Tonight I spoke with the exH about a loan he has that has my name on it and therefore I can't do anything financially b/c of it. I miss him. It's not fair though b/c I wanted the divorce. For so many years I was not in love with him that I was dealing daily with guilt about that. I started to resent him for not being happy although he would have moved the earth and sky for me. Now when I talk to him I miss him so bad. We were the perfect match except for attraction wise. I wasn't attracted to him at all and he adored me. For me the sex was terrible but for him he loved it. I couldn't do this to him anymore so I let him go. I should have let him go a long time ago. We were together for 14 years, no children. Tonight he told me he was never really happy with me. That really hurt. He has a new gf and maybe he is realizing how much he wasn't happy to in our M. Why does that hurt to hear him say he wasn't happy either? Would he say it just to get back at me maybe? I can't see him doing that, he's got a kind soul. Unless he's changed, I know this chick is very manipulative so I don't know what to think. I thought we would always be friends and we agreed if anything happened to either one of us we would be there for each other. This has changed (understandably) b/c his gf is nervous about us talking. She is 20 and he is 32. I think she's got a few security issues, but who doesn't at 20 yrs old? Anyway, has this kind of thing happened to anyone else? Any advice. It hurts.
LilRocket

I think that YOU've just said what you needed to hear.... sometimes (like for him) you have to take the steps to move on before you can understand how much better things can be.
I know that once you can begin to rebuild your life and start getting out to do things for you that you truly care about... you'll feel better about things, too.
I'm glad that you found us.
Karen ~ wildlucky4me ~