how do i cope without my girls
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| Tue, 03-27-2007 - 2:23pm |
Hi there, I am new to this board unfortunately. It's unfortunate in the sense that I never thought this would happen to me. My stbxh of 11 years (we've been together 16) has decided that we are incompatible and there is no passion in our marriage. He's been unhappy for many years but waits until the week after Christmas to tell me he has a lawyer and he's moving out. He just moved out 2 weeks ago. I was totally blindsided by all of this. We have had problems in the past but we just had our second child in August (our first dd is 4 years old). I never saw this coming and I did not want this but now I have no choice but to deal with it. My biggest concern and the thing that is making me cry the most (and I cry a lot...ugh) is when my little girls have to go spend the weekend with daddy. How am I going to get through this? I'm not as concerned about my 4 year old because she has gone on sleepovers to grandma's house, etc. before but I'm going to miss my little 8 month old dd so much. My heart aches thinking about it. I'm just SOOOOO mad - this was NOT my decision and now i have to be heartbroken and sad all the time. He wants to be best friends with me (selfish jerk). He doesn't understand why i can't be all buddy buddy with him. He says he "still loves me but is not in love with me"...gee thanks. I just want him to hurt as badly as I do - maybe even worse. I realize that i need to get rid of all those negative feelings and malicious thoughts but it's all too raw for me right now. I'm sick of crying all the time. When is it ever going to get better? When will it not hurt so much to send my kids to his house for a whole weekend?
Thanks in advance for your support.

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