I CANNOT believed what I did!!
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I CANNOT believed what I did!!
| Tue, 11-22-2005 - 10:55pm |
I can't believe I actually DID this!! My dd had her school music program tonight, and I KNEW her dad would be there. I asked him to record the program and give me a copy, he said he would. That's not the part I am talking about though LOL! I got seats right up front for me and my family like I do every year, and ds saved a seat for his dad. I had my doubts that he would show up let alone want to sit with us. Plus I was pretty sure he wouldn't have class enough to leave the skag at home, and I didn't want to really deal with that for the most part. Ex showed up and OF COURSE he brought her like I expected! There were looking around for a place to sit and it looked as if she was going to leave and just drop him off. Obviously awkward for her because she KNEW I was there with my family, but that ds wanted his dad to sit with him. There were TWO empty seats on the other side of my son, and my family was all on the other side of me. I thought to myself "self, this is ridiculous already!!" I don't know what possessed me but I got up off my chair and walked over to them and said "why don't you two come sit with us, there are 2 empty seats, and Ryan was saving one for you (to his dad)". In a mousy intimidated voice she said, "you don't mind if I sit with you"? I said "NO, of course not"! And I smiled at her and led them to the seats. Sufficiently awkward probably, but I thought "what the hell". He filmed the program, she sat next to him and smiled when Sarah walked out on stage, and I smiled too knowing that this was the right thing to do. Then later, I thanked him for making me a cd of the program smiled at her and went outside and smoked like a chimney, and just breathed a sigh of relief that my life makes sense again!! I had watched her face when my daughter walked out on stage, it is literally lit up!! Anyone who feels this way about my kids has the right idea about life; and there is hope for! At that moment, for the first time, I saw her as a person, not a skag. I will never refer to her in that way again! Yes, it was wrong what they did, they were deceptive and hurtful and cowardice in their actions over the last two years! They know that and so do I!! They barely looked me in the eye, and I was ABLE to make eye contact and keep my dignity intact! I know that I have been fair and honorable in MY OWN actions, and I know the right lessons to give now to teach people the right way to treat me! And what's more, I DON'T feel like a pushover or a doormat like I thought I might! I feel more free and I have a taste of what inner peace is like, and I LIKE it alot! What a DAY!!

Wow!!
Good for you!!!
Karen ~ wildlucky4me ~
YOU ROCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
You are no longer a 'scorned' women.
That is great! What an admirable realization!
Hugs to you!
Angelena